I said, “PeterGene, where the hell are you?”
He hadn’t replied to my at my yahoo address.
So naturally when he DID reply to me, I neglected to answer HIM. He sent me three notes on yahoo and one here.
Being both obsessive and havig attention deficit puts me inthis position all the time.
As an obsessive, I want my responses NOW. But when I get self-righteous about it, I end up being the one who has either already gotten it and missed it or neglecting to do something myself.
And I do it in public.
In a way, I have turned htis into an advanatge. I am so used to being embarrassed that I am not afraid to do so again and again and again.
Most people are terribly afraid of embarrassment. But most of the special learning I have done has been by plowing right in and making a fool of myself.
As I have said before, if you are respectful with an expert on a subject, all you will get out of him is what is already in his writings. But if you say exactly what you think, heresy and all, he will crush you with a mass of information he would never give a normal person.
And he starts with the basics.
So while somebody else woud sit there crushed, I am listening carefully to a flow of information he wants to make damned sure I understand.
Everything I pass on to you falls into the same category. I tried all the different approaches, right out there in public, and I know very, very well which ones they cannot deal with.
I got a lesson from all those athletes in the 50s and 60s who had fought their way back from polio. By the time they had been totally crippled and then slowly gotten back on their feet, going on to championship athletics was a lot easier for them than for others.
Many of the things I have to offer come directly from the crippling problems I have neurologically.
And once you go through all that, and realize what you have done, you really resent having to listen to “The Greatest Generation” having spoiled your young days by telling you how wonderful and brave THEY were while yielding on every important point to the powers that be.
I quote PeterGene’s comment here:
I have tried to contact you Bob.
Sorry for this one being off topic [but on topic i am against abortion of MY Godlet or Godling [i don’t think more needs be said! ]]
This is a repeat of my email sent to the address you gave on this forum.
>>I have changed to plain text.
I will add this to your latest BLOG as well because i can’t be sure i can even communicate with you Bob!
Perhaps that was the problem because you Murlutok are not image orientated but rather word orientated.
I am image orientated and i use words with a strong mind, like you have suffer respectable conservatives.
My Nick at SF used to be “Sibelius”.
I deliberately deleted all my personal details and my avatar at SF before i fell on my sword.
The monitors obviously saw that.
Why i hate white racists is something you need to understand because it is part of the battle for MY people! After you defeat the Jews you will have to pass by me! And Don Black with all his experience would have to be brain dead not to know what i am on about.
But i understand the problems with the forum.
It has to do with scale and politics and how to handle loose cannons like me.
They don’t know me, nor trust me.
Well the action they took was good!
That is how i may defend my Keep and MY PEOPLE!
After all, it is THEIR [SF] forum and a piece of shit like me should be put down when he appears as a naughty lil boy.
It ain’t fair! LOL.
But i understand it perfectly.
But they don’t understand!
I am prolly the most transparent member they EVER got. I got absolutely no secet you or them can’t research with GOOGLE about me on all forums i have been to. And i have have been to some pretty sordid forums and got banned there just as i have been on SF.
They are ALL sooooo serious about their fantasies!
Why?
Because i would do the same?
My only sadness is, i can’t communicate with anyone.
It is the price we pay for integrity in the environment we must now negotiate.
Yes bigger [in regard to SF numbers] is better for the Jews but as you and i know it is also LESS for us Aryans who need intimate communities were we can relate to each other!
Don’t worry Bob about me, i am nobody and i do not wish to be anything other than i am worthy, I KNOW YOU WILL understand the problems with SF perfectly…
You will be great helping this forum! And please keep me banned until my time is up.
I trust you, based ENTIRELY, on all you have said, on the last 30 or so of your talks.
I have actually listened to them!!!!!
That is ALL i got to go by!
Respectfuully yours
PeterGene.
PS. I am sad you have not been able to read any of my emails and not see any of the images.
I don’t know why this is so, but perhaps this one will get through.
Comment by Peter Gene
#1 by Peter Gene Budarick on 02/24/2006 - 7:50 am
Thanks Bob for your description of your development in adversity.
I can relate to that because i have had both similar and different psychological problems.
This goes back to my childhood. I was deemed to be “abnormal” and “retarded”. But i was actually more advanced than other children and so i undertood what they were saying about me [they assumed i could not understand what they were saying, so they said it openly]. Now as you know Bob that is a potential future disaster! But somehow i survived, BUT….. all my friends and relations are dead now either because of suicide, drug overdose, broken marriage, or they are now stagnating in respectable compliance to various fantasies. They were all deemed to be bright and normal. They said they would be successful but that nothing would become of Peter! But all these people failed. Not one of them became successful in anything compared to my life! And i observed with pain how they ruined their children as well.
Why is it so?
Like you Bob, i had to work on myself. But i had no help from any one. Because i understand how the human mind functions i can understand other people quite well. I know that most people have not the slightest idea of how they function [lack slef observation] and thus they depend on experts which of course exploit them. So we have huge industries built around this issue. The PedoCaust [PedoHoax it should be termed like the HolyHoax] being one of the biggest industries, after Drugs. There is money in pedophilia! Oh yea! There is no money in mothers abusing and killing their boys or turning their daughters into Lesbians.
I soon realized why those who had handicaps [visible or not] were able to win in competitions and gain an understanding of themselves and life. But contrariwise those who had been given everything and found no obstacles in themselves and their environment soon stagnated or burned themselves. I am not generalizing here. I realize there are exceptions. BUT I have observed this sooooo many times.
Allow a footnote on this.
Jean Sibelius is one of the world’s greates composers [primarily in the specialty domain of the Symphonic form] because he was limited in his practical musical abilities. He understood that, BUT he did not give up! he actually turned his handicap into an asset! Eventually his persistance resulted in music which was never heard before [nor since!]. It was beyond anything a musical mind could imagine. Sibelius was obsessed as you and i are. But his music was also very rational and obvious. The truth of it was not obvious except to the untrained ear. He did NOT have to invent a new musical language which all the other composers of his time did [the musical equivalent to wordism – which is what “modern music” is]. Sibelius knew exactly how to move the human spirit employing ONLY the normal existing musical vocabulary. BUT….. using it in unexpected and radical ways, because he actually had something to say. Sibelius was not a musical wordist who created sonic wallpaper as Mozart and all the other JudeoChristian composers did. Most people can’t bear to listen to Sibelius any more than they can bear listing to Bob Whitaker. They say Sibelius music gets on their nerves. Sibelius says things they don’t want to know! OK, i don’t want to digress too much. I was moved to think about it in response to what you wrote Bob.
Yes i got pissed off with Stormfront they consistently took one week or more to moderate my posts. And they deleted many of them. Like the one about white phosphorus and David Duke. They did this to no one else but me, and some other people were posting bullshit, vile shit or empty garbage.
So like you, i reacted. Me thinks i have similar temperament to you. I am sorry for it now because it achieved nothing. SF is like a BIG burocrazy. It is pointless to fight it! And that WILL be SF’s undoing. It will be its death. That is why ai attacked them witthe “Jooo” metaphor but they are too stupid to dig it out of the ground even.
I have more important things to do now.
I must work on my Quatzikosahan.
But i am glad that at SF i got to know about Bob Whitaker and his thoughts on things. I immediately realized were Bob was coming from. It was not the content so much. but WHO was behind it, the kind of mind behind the content, which moved me. And it was eaxactly the same as with the music of Sibelius. It would be impossible for anyone to say the things Bob Whitaker has said without seing them [with his untrained eye]. That alone was worth having been to SF.
BTW i must say some of the people there, like Lindberg, have been in the beginning very kind and helpful to me. I have not forgotten that either.
I think the primary problem with SF is that it is too BIG. As you know it always happens when you are successful new unforseen problems arise and these lead to death of project. SF is a contradiction to what we need in our practical lives of human interactions as white Aryans. We seek quality over quantity and attention to detail.
Large numbers will never help us but only destroy us.
Thanks Bob,
and best wishes
PeterGene